Well we went in today for our appointment- they had given me a Valium to help with the anxiety and such (this seemed to work....kinda)
I was in tears moments after entering the room and waiting on them to come in- thank goodness my husband was there to comfort me and try and stay positive-
Dr. Kaufmann came in and he did another sonogram, just to make sure there wasn't something he may have missed in our other visits. The sono came clear so he went ahead and started the hysteroscopy. Let me tell you....this was no walk in the park!! So thankful that my husband was there to hold my hand and help me thru it- He was in my uterus looking to see if he could locate the pregnancy. Once he was finished he informed us the the pregnancy was not in my uterus and he said that 95% of the time it is in the tubes.
The good thing is that this is not another miscarriage and will hopefully not happen again- and the percentage rate that the next pregnancy will end in a miscarriage is only 15% as if this was another miscarriage it would be up to 30%.
So he told me that he was going to give me a shot of Methotrexate- this is a common chemo drug, but it attacks rapidly dividing cells and in our case should end our ectopic pregnancy cells without surgery.
There are some side effects to this drug and I hope and pray that they are not so severe as they can be with all of this-
I wanted to share something that my husband wrote while he was in California last week- he is so very sweet!!
We struggle and we don't know why
We search for answers but they pass us by
We hold on to hope and faith to stay strong
But for us we have wanted this for so long
It's a roller coaster of ups and downs
We push forward and hind our frowns
Holding each other together
I just want to make my wife a mother
So we wait and keep trying
I just hate to see her crying
She is so beautiful and strong
She is on my mind all day long
Test after test and shot after shot
wish I could take her spot
She braves it all
Waiting for the next call
I believe in a higher power
and our love has bloomed like a flower
We push forward and stay positive
Don't mind us if we are a little sensitive
I know one day we will have our bundle of joy
And I don't even care if it's a boy
Our next step in all of this is continue to watch my HCG counts and make sure they are going down as they need to be- I go in on Thursday and Monday for blood draws to check on my levels and hope and pray my body will pass this on its own- and hope that it does it sooner than later.
With us taking this drug we can not try to get pregnant for 2 months- this is ok with us as we had already planned on taking a break thru the holidays to give us sometime to relax and emotionally be ready to start this all again after the new year.
I ask that you keep us in your prayers- that we stay strong thru this and that we come to peace that God has our plan for us and our babies we will once have, but it will have to be in all of his perfect timing.
I'm not sure if I ever told you about my sister in law and her complications she went through to get have a baby. She never had a problem getting pregnant, carrying the baby was her problem. She had multiple miscarriages, including ectopic and a still born, Peyton. She had labs done to see what was causing her to miscarry. She found out that she had a blood disorder that saw the baby as something bad and her body would attack it. After finding all of that out they decided to get a surrogate. After 3 attempts, the surrogate got pregnant with twins. Not a month later, my sister in law found out she was pregnant again. This time she had to give herself shots daily in her stomach. Nine months later she had 3 beautiful and healthy little girls! I just wanted to share her story with you for some encouragement. I know this is very hard for both you and David to be going through, my heart aches for yall. I would get so annoyed by people telling me to relax, when the only thing you can think of is getting pregnant. That being said.....try to relax. Haha. You know I'm here for you anytime. Love ya!
ReplyDeleteRandi, I am so sorry that you and David are having to go through all of this. I know it must be hard on you both, and I prsy each day that God will continue to give you the courage to keep trying. And you are right, he has his plan for you and you will have your little family when he says the time is right. Dont loose your faith try and stay strong, and always remember we all love you bunches.
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