So the last week or so my dear friend Jessica that passed away on August 21, 2007 has really been on my mind. Her and I were very close and stayed close after high school, we even moved in together!! We had so many memories together, I guess that is what is making this hard. I feel like someone is missing during this whole planning of the wedding and talking about starting my family. Jessi was always the best at making everyone around her feel like they were just a great person and had something special about them. She always used to tell me that I was already a mother-I just didn't have a baby yet.
So as I'm missing her I start to think about everyone else that "should" be here for David and I's special day- My grandfathers, David's mother and Grandparents and his Aunt.....just makes me want to cry. What I wouldn't give to be able to share our special day with these loved ones that will not be there in person. I know they will be looking down on us with big huge smiles and enjoying it from the best seats in the world!
But call me a little selfish, I want to share it with them, and be able to touch them, and laugh with them, and everything else that you get to do with the people you care about on your big day! Just feel like they should be here, and share in this wonderful occasion with us.
But as a tribute to David's mother I have gotten a Silver bouquet pin with the awareness ribbon on it (for those of you who don't know David lost his mother at the age of 7 to breast cancer) as well as a picture of her on her wedding day- that way in a way she will be there with us.
Ok enough of the crying for now- we are only 72 days till the wedding!!!!!
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