David and I were able to finally get away a couple of weeks ago and really clear our heads after everything. We went to sunny San Diego for a week!! We had a complete blast!! We went to the San Diego Zoo, Disneyland and of course the beach!!! There were seals and sea lions on the beaches in La Jolla where we stayed, they are such neat and funny little animals! Lol I could have spent hours and hours just watching the sea lions! Here are a few pictures from our trip! 
We are getting close to being able to put our house on the market to sell!! We touched up paint last weekend and I have carpet cleaners coming out next weekend- I just need to get a cleaning crew out to do a heavy deep clean and we have to plant more flowers in the flower beds and we are set!!!
My heart has been heavy the past fee days, I have been doing a tug-of-war with my head and my heart when it comes to the subject of having a baby and such. I think my head has won. I have decided to let go of the idea of me ever carrying and delivering a child of our very own. This has been a very hard thing for me to let go of, since I was a little girl all I have ever wanted was to be pregnant and to be a mommy.
But I have to let this idea go. We have decided to put our energy and such into adoption. This is no inexpensive thing, it is about 40,000 or more to be able to do. It all seems overwhelming and so confusing. We are asking for some prayers please, prayers for our hearts to continue to follow Jesus' plan for us, for us to continue to listen and follow His guidance. For us to find a way to come up with this kind of money (we are open to fundraising suggestions) and most of all, pray for the birth mother, whoever and wherever she may be. Pray for her heart, and lastly pray that it doesn't take long for her to find us.
We are not sure when we will start this whole process (it will be after we are done with the new house we know that much, unless something or someone finds us sooner)
Letting go has been one of the hardest things I have really ever had to do in my life. But, I can not keep doing what I have been, it has taken a toll on my heart and emotions.
Pray our house sells quickly and we are able to start building quickly!!
Thank you all!
God Bless
Randi
